firsts…..

this week has been a maaaad week. Its been really exciting and really quite scary at the same time.

and its all to do with this little boy…

who is a short 3 and abit months off being 5 years old.

This week we went for his school ‘open day’, well afternoon. He got to meet his classmates and play on some toys and we got to meet the headmistress and got a ‘talk’ on what goes on in the school. I kept thinking how strange it was to not know who he was with or even where he was!! Being a school parent involves so much TRUST…you are trusting the teachers, the dinner ladies, the admin staff..everyone to care for and nuture your precious children……..and straight after we went to his first ever swimming lesson. He had made me laugh the day before when i had told him he was going for a swimming lesson he had reliabiliy informed me that he wouldnt need a teacher because he already knew how to swim!!!

so, i got that feeling again, handing him over into someones care who i had not even spoken to let alone knew and watching him from a distance. It was bitter-sweet. I am so proud of him, he loved the swimming, so confident, wore his goggles and dived under water and listened (okay, so only a bit) to the teacher but then there was the ‘that is my little boy beginning his own path in the world without me’ and while every mother knows this is coming, it can sometimes still catch you unawares and leave your heart aching…just a little…