okay so not at two o'clock in the afternoon, although i reckon i could easily convince myself its night time now, but I have been suffering a bit of insomnia recently. Its not always the obvious 'im uncomfortable' reason although turning from one side to the other has become a bit of a major effort. But sometimes its just the 'stuff on my mind' kind of thing..y'know?
Im not very good at dealing with it really, im not usually a person who stays awake thinking of stuff. I usually hit the pillow and sleep until im woken mostly by a small person trying to get into bed with us…….so the past couple of nights I have just stayed in bed and done the usual…fiddled with the iphone, sip some water, have some rennie, go to the loo and then wait to drift off to sleep again..
But that is boring, and i keep thinking 'hmmm all the things i could get done now without the interference of children' like bake, cook, clean, pack suitcase again (the girls like unpacking it and putting their own things in, im sure im going to arrive at the womens with a baby annabel, peppa pig and a bunch of crayons!), listen to the radio, watch iplayer, tidy or maybe drink some more raspberry leaf tea….
Bring realistic though I just cannot bring myself to get out of bed, not because im tired but because I cant bear the thought of going through the next day 'knowing' I have been 'up' for no reason throughout the night. Just can't do it.